New Year Resolutions

I know that New Year resolutions are mend to be broken but if I don’t make any also have no target in life which I think it is no good. For me this year I think is 1st resolution is to be free from injury. Last year hasn’t been a good year for me when it comes to injury. I Injured my both hamstring which put me out of football for about 3 months plus. Then 2 weeks back I injured my left knee. This has affected me climbing stairs and when come to bowling because I need to bend lower to get better control. But surprising because of knee I change my posture when I bowl the ball and it works better and my consistence. After few sessions with my friends I think I know what I should do during the tournament on the 19th this month. I would like to be fit again so I will be able to play futsal with my ex colleague of TTSH. So this year number 1 resolution is be free from injury.

2nd resolution is to be able to play the drums by the end of the year. I have enrolled for drums lesson at goldhill centre. I wish I will be good enough to Jam with my colleague at the end of year. Hope I will not disappoint them.

3rd resolution is about work. Hope to do my best for my user. Which I feel I still did not do enough but will do my best to push for repair to finish asap so they have enough equipment to use for the patients.

4th resolution I think I need to change my overall attitude towards my mum and relatives. Firstly is to reduce the chance of me pissing my mum off. I still think I am not a good enough son. I think is sometime best for me to keep quiet when get scolding and not to shout back. When come to relatives no matter how I don’t like them I think is best to keep it to myself and don't show it in front of them. I also will not comment on what they say. Lastly is the way I talk to them. I really suck at it. When I talk to them is like wanna fight that kind of tone which I know is wrong. I think need to tone down. All this take time but I think I have to start somewhere.

I will try my best not to break my resolutions but I know I am not perfect so I will try accomplished a couple of them and I will be happy.

Inconsiderate Singaporean

Hi Guys and Gals, It is been a while since i update blog. During this time I am recovery from my injury thru physiotherapy and will be playing soccer alt weeks at 1st and slowly return to full action playing every week.

Today my title is about inconsiderate Singaporean which I see on when I am on the public transport and other places. 1st lets talk about what I see on public transport. I was taking the MRT to meet my friends and Plaza Singapura the other day when a lady in clutches came on the train at Novena and worse she has only 1 leg as well. But absolutely no one give up a sit for her to sit down. I was standing and looking around at those who are siting. All either are sleeping or chit chatting happily away. I feel even how much the government come up with ads about this kind of issue it is useless. As some Singaporean just simply nonchalant(Bo Chap).

Then the other day when was taking MRT with my colleague to orchard see one middle age man stand at the center of the entrance and exit door at TPY MRT station. I think the pics on the glass door are all fake he also cannot be bother. What is the rush of getting up the train for the train will wait for everyone who wants to get down and let those who wants to get on one. And some more you already waiting at the platform. Then my colleague pass a casual comment saying someone eat glass grow up one. (Thinks that he is invisible)

Next is one day when My mum and I went to open a new safe deposit box at PS. The queue is long due to some bank near by want to close down the branch so are refer to PS to open one a new safe deposit box. As we are in the queue and a few others also we waiting for our turn. There were a couple standing in front of the queue and also opening a new box and they saw their relative who are way behind the queue and allow them to cut queue. That really piss me off and I think some others also feel the same as I do. If for example I am just like the couple in front of me I anyhow call anyone I know to cut queue will you guys like it or not.

Lastly, this is a car who park illegally at a basement car park. A few times he park at the 15mins lot for half a day. That lot is only for only to drop off people or things only and the person can park there for half a day. The other day the person also park at a double yellow line near the exit of the car park for half a day as well. I think it is not only illegal and also dangerous for other users of the car park because it is near the exit of the car park where car move fast and if the person suddenly drive out of there he or she will bang on to the on coming vehicle. Then will cause major jam in the car park. I hope this person next time if cannot find a lot please find a lot at the outdoor parking lot.

Injury getting from bad to worse

Today during soccer I aggravated my injury. This time really cannot run much anymore. I also dun know how long will I will be out. My Hamstring is hurt I cannot run like before anymore. This really sucks. I also dun know what to do anymore. Taking football away is just like taking my life away but I know I need to stop for a while.

For my feelings for someone I think I did a good job of keeping it somewhere which she will not see and no one will know. I am learning to just let the person be happy that's all. I dun wan to force the issue or what like the previous time. Even I know she got someone she might like now, I will be just behind her to care for her like a guardian angel. 我一直在 第二顺位 爱着你

In the work front, congrates to Izwan for joining us in our department. We will sure make you feel like home at our department. And there will be a 21 Gun salute on your 1st day of work. Haha. Just prepare.

Yesterday friendly match

Yesterday my team has a friendly match against a team which we lose last time by 3 goals to 2. And yesterday match was held at a place which I do not like due to the pitch condition which I play a few years back and also lose by a 9 nil scoreline.

Finally yesterday I can erase all the hoo doo of their place after winning by 8 goals to nil. During the 1st half we should have score more not for some wasteful finishing by the strikers. But nevertheless we took a 3 nil lead at half time.

During the half time break I felt my hamstring is really pulling. I can barely run but I soldier on. This is mistake which I live to regret after the game. The 2nd half we score another 5 more goals and we ended with a 8 nil score line.

After the game my hamstring was so strain I limp all the way back home. Then I went to bras basah complex with Yee hung to buy watch at the end I got a $100 discount for the watch and the sales lady thought I am very young and studying because I look very young but in fact I am already 28yrs old. I feel that is a good place to get a watch because not only of reasonable price and also of customer service by the people working there. After that we seperately went home. After I reach home I also felt my lower back strain maybe of my hamstring cause my lower back to take a pounding. It was so bad I really can barely walk now and even when I do stand up and sit down motion I also can feel the pain.

Today I went to work as usual because I know something bound to happen but I ask Thomas for help with Endo centre to bend down to plug in a BNC cable for me to the machine. During that time I notice I cannot even bend my back so I decided to go see a doctor and she gave me a day of MC. And include off for tomorrow I can take another day of rest. I think on wednesday also no badminton for me so I can recover faster. While for this sunday game I must see 1st if it never recover I think I will not play.

最近的心情

最近的心情很不好都是因为我做了一个很笨的事。我喜欢的人出现了可是我太心急着想要跟她正式交往而最后给人家拒绝了。我真的是一个大笨蛋。为什么我要这样子呢？我常常都问我这一个问题。如果我没这样着急的话和没有给她任何压可能她会很开心。对我来说爱一个人的宗旨永远只是要你心爱的人开心就好了而我却没做到。我真的很后悔可是我知道我已经不可能回到过去把这一切都改掉了。我现在每一天上班都得伪装我自己在同事的面前装成我很开心我没事了的样子。我真的很辛苦啊。真的是在用笑容来把眼泪催眠。

在这里我想跟她说声对不起都是我的错。我只能怪自己把这份感情搞的这么遭。我不得不承认我每天都还在想着她。忘不了她那双漂亮会说话的眼睛也忘不了她的眼神。我知道我们现在只能维持朋友的关系至少还好过没朋友做。现在我只希望你每天都能很开心的过就好了。我也会好好的过。我告诉自己我会尽全力从这次的教训领悟到而且下次我不会再犯同一样的错了。

对为我一直在关心的好朋友说谢谢你们的关心。还有向一位一直很关心和支持我的好妹妹说声谢谢。哥会好好的过日子不会再消沉下去了。我不会再让你为我担心了。

A song which describe how I feel now

Hi guys as I watching 吳克群 DVD got this song call 音乐让我说. There are some parts of the lyrics describe how I feel when I see the special someone.

还记得第一次见面时候 的经过
我们有点尴尬的say hello
我紧张 我害羞 我手心冒汗加发抖
一句话都不敢说

还记得第二次见面时候 也差不多
我紧张的好像都快中风
有话说 还不说 我脸红的都像关公
只好让音乐来说
好险有

音乐让我说 让我说
先来跟你say个hello
音乐让我说 让我说
说能不能做个朋友
音乐让我说 让我说
说说说说 说你爱我

三月的阳光在下午四点太难捉摸
神出鬼没 高兴就探个头
原来阳光是你 空气是你
都你掌控 拜托夜色能温柔

大跨步 交叉步 凌波微步我加速度
我等不及想和你跳支舞
人海中遇见你 呼吸贴近 算我走运
但接下来说什么
好险有

音乐让我说 让我说
先来跟你say个hello
音乐让我说 让我说
说能不能做个朋友
音乐让我说 让我说
说说说说 说你爱我

不是每朵花开都会有人懂得欣赏
但我们却彼此经过
放心我绝对不会让这机会悄悄溜走
嘿 邱比特 你千万别睡着

音乐让我说 让我说
先来跟你say个hello
音乐让我说 让我说
说能不能做个朋友
音乐让我说 让我说
说说说说 说你爱我

Today game another defeat

Today game we lose 5 nil. Most of Opp players are very technically better than us. They control the midfield and they attack our full backs. In true we also did not play well because we conceded stupid goals. If we close down the midfield tighter we could have a chance. We lose as a team today. I have learn something even in defeat that is most important. Hopefully next game we will get better.

On the brighter side of thing Sebastian Vettel won the chinese GP in F1. I really like this driver beside Kimi. I think he has a great future ahead because he not in a big team in F1 and he still can win races. That what I like about him. Since last season at Monza when he won his 1st race I already have my eyes on him. Hopefully he will be the next Micheal Schumacher. By the way Vettel is also a German.